Sunday, September 19, 2004

Dread, Loved, Mixed Feelings

I'm feeling kinda lost, sad, torn away... ok... not kinda, but VERY. You see, my boyfriend's gonna report for his enlistment on the 30th Sep, THIS MONTH! It seems just like yesterday we're still at our 1st month.... time sure flies... feel torn n lost without him for 3 weeks. 3 weeks! how am I gonna survive 3 weeks without him???

Isn't such an irony? That on the 30th Sep this month, which is his enlistment date, is also our 4th month anniversary... 'Parting is such sweet sorrow' (Romeo and Juliet). Alright. I'm getting so corny here. I've learnt alot from this relationship with my boyfriend. I learnt how to control my temper. I used to be very tempermental, very hot-tempered. And I learnt to compromise. I realised that I don't give in much to my other partner. But my boyfriend has taught me so much.

He taught me to compromise, learn to control my temper. He's been very patient with me. When I throw tantrums, he'll tolerate it. He's not a tolerant guy you know... He's got a worse temper than me. But he's changed for me. I know he's worried about leaving me alone for 3 weeks,as I'm blur like ku ku head. He even taught me some self-defense moves (he's an aikodist), coz he knows I'm ku ku head, always kena people 'eat tofu'. When he's away for 3 weeks, I can't sleep in the bus, can't sleep in the mrt. Coz ever I was molested in the bus when I was sleeping, I don't dare to sleep in public transport unless he's around. He even allow me to bite, wack, hit him when we're quarrelling hotly. He always bring a smile to my face even after we just quarrelled.

We've so much fun together. Laughter, arguments, tears of happiness and sadness. 6 years.... It took us 6 years to be together... But it's worth it. When I think back... everything's worth it for him. I don't regret anything done with him nor for him. Oh yah... I forgot to say... he likes to dance. hahahah... especially to the song 'Square Room', when we're in his room, chilling out. He'll just dance for no reason. hahahahahaha.... his moves.... SO CUTE!!!

But one thing for sure, is his room is not neat n square. It's HORRENDOUS!!! so messy! must clean his room when he's away. haiz... GUYS! what to do?

My Prince is very doting to me. He'll buy my favourite chocolates, when I'm down and when I did well in school. But he's not a spendthrift. hahaha... I taught him to save! ^^v
He don't usually buy stuffs for me. So far, he's bought my favourite pendant I've been eyeing for some months before we're together officially. He bought a pen, a pair of blue sapphire earrings, some costume jewellery, clothes, bag...

The Pendant
I've been eyeing a blue crystal pendant from Perlini's Silver for months before we're officially together. He knew it. I didn't even tell him at all! And he presented it to me on our official day, Sunday, 30th May 2004, 9.30pm, at Singapore Expo. He used that present to propose to me.

The Pen
I received a Parker pen, with my name engraved on it. It's my favourite colour blue. It's silvery blue! Know the signifance of it? Means he's always at my there to support me throughout my 4 years in university, and he wants me to work hard for my sheet of paper...

The pair of Earrings
I received my birthday present from him yesterday, 18 Sept. He bought the present early for me as he can't celebrate it with me since he'll be stuck in Tekong. I know he's feeling down and sad.... But I don't mind. All these are trifle matters. Doesn't matter. Everyday can be like a birthday, everyday can be an anniversary. What's most important is how we feel and treat each other. The earrings were bought from Goldheart. They're gorgeous. Blue (my favourite colour again) sapphire stones.... They complement with the blue pendant he bought from Perlini's Silver.

There's still many stuffs he bought for me. But mind you, he don't ALWAYS buy gifts for me. Firstly, I don't like him to spend. Secondly, if he're to buy gifts frequently, the meaning of gifts will be lost.

There's so much I've to say about him, about us, about our relationship. But I have no idea where to start, how to start.

I really can't bear to be away for him for 3 weeks.... But I've got no choice. Not within my authority... Even Lee Kwan Yew's grandson have to serve NS....

1 comments:

Xin_er said...

Whoa... Your Bf dotes on you ar. Such a long post. Too free ar? Hope you enjoyed your holidays. Exams coming, hope that you are keeping with your work. I hv lots of confidence in you. Time management and Consistency are v impt man. Guage your pace too. Good luck and remember to miss me... LOL!